Church or people disconnected from people?

"... I wondered if I was truly saved, so much so that I had this question running through my head: am I going to go to hell because I don't want to go to church?..."

Allow me to say these things, and I'm not good at quoting the Bible without having it at hand: Are you saved immediately or by a life process?

I believe this is a process, but there is some tradition and teaching saying what you have said (time will tell).

I believe YOUR church is the temple of your body, same way as Jesus told others, challanging them to destroy it. How holy is your body temple? Mine is still being mundane.

My temple is crawling in some things I desired, those things I think I miss, and I can admit His Presence is not dwelling in me. In fact, I have real problems to have Him to come down or inside, since I don't know how to call His attention to my thoughts, longs or ideas I made words.

The church you have mentioned and tried to bypass is the same MANY still try to avoid for decades and centuries, but this happens when we have acknowledged the personal emptiness we all have, deep inside, without God and His Spirit.

How many denominations are out there?

How many churches claim to be "right" while millions follow -and seek- other "living" cult?
(Cults to the personal EGOs, by the way).

The real church is that ONE He will raise up, any day and TODAY, each day to be saved. He has made and still making His church (just see some people hear HIs personal voice, His dreams and spiritual warnings, while others lack His directions, because some are following rules and not His Spirit). I CAN BE COMPLETELY WRONG BY WRITING THIS, but I think I'm right. Are you as wrong as I am?

You or any could be as radical -or legalistc- as any may wish, but the church has gone to be pentecostalistic in the country where I live. You've mentioned your "1st church" (mine was one like those named "Churches of Christ") but todays the 1st church of many persons is that where you are pushed to give more money rather than helping the needy and their preaching is wealth and money, instead of real love (you are right on that) and those things are easily BALANCED when you assume your own selfcontrol to be you. Of course, if you don like people -like those I avoid in Venezuela- I will not say you are wrong, because I MISS not partaking in the "Lord's supper", which has turned to be a simple sunday's breakfast or that taken monthly or weekly. Didn't He say it was more important TO LIVE by His living bread?

Well! I 'd better stopping it here.